[Moments] Ennui

Been extremely domestic these few days – resting, reading, cleaning the house, making meals, doing laundry.

It’s nothing exciting, really, except that the reason for our domestication was due to Wayne getting into a close-shaved accident.

But being at home, enjoying the breeze winding through the house, the gentle touches of the sunlight (which was also perfect for laundry), and doing almost mindless chores gave me some time to think about life.

Maybe it’s what the call quarter-life crisis. I’m extremely thankful for everyone and everything I have in my life right now but especially in the recent months, I haven’t been able to shake off that intense feeling of ennui.

I watch hours pass by at work, submissions made every other week, one meeting after another, weekends come and go. It’s really not too bad, but I haven’t been able to shake of the feeling that one day I should be doing something I’m truly passionate about, advocating for something I truly believe in and taking pride in my accomplishments.

I haven’t quite seen the light yet.

So in the meantime, I just let the feeling of ennui linger while I pray about it, as I cleared out some leftover apples from the fridge and made a pot of Apple and Red Dates Beverage to lift the mood.

Ingredients:
2L of water
5 Apples
40g of rock sugar (or to taste)
A handful of red dates
Some Chinese almonds (optional)

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“Life creates itself in delirium and is undone in ennui.” – Emil Cioran

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[Moments] Nostalgia

It’s been a week since we returned from our 3.5 weeks long honeymoon.

We’ve been looking forward to it for such a long time, the anticipation made the trip felt ridiculously short when we looked back at it. It almost felt like a dream…

One of the most wonderful part of the trip was the amazing food we got to savour around London and Paris. A couple of Michelin-star restaurants in London, some ultra-popular food and dessert joints and the abundant artisanal hand-made pastries in Paris.

We concluded that we probably spoilt our palates during the trip. We’ll try to update the blog soon with some photos of our food adventure there 🙂

But for now, a simple homely post because I’m sick and stuck at home after a week of mere 4-hr a day sleep for the past week due to jet lag.

We bought a marble cake last night and eating it now reminded me of how my mum loves marble cakes. She used to buy them at least once a week and I’ll get to pack them to school/ work.

It’s odd how food, almost like photos, can pack so much memories and whisk you back to the past in a whim.

My sense of taste is grossly muted by the flu but the rich buttery taste still manages to cut through. I feel like a child again, waking up to breakfast served by mum. Extremely comforting when I’m stuck at home – sick.

I’ll probably try making a marble cake soon (when I’m well enough) and surprise my dearest woman on earth with that 🙂

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“There are a few moments in your life when you are truly and completely happy, and you remember to give thanks. Even as it happens you are nostalgic for the moment, you are tucking it away in your scrapbook.” –  David Benioff

[Moments] Spontaneity

While spontaneous moments are sometimes fun and exciting, I’m not one who embraces impromptu activities with arms wide open. In fact, I sometimes feel lost and aimless in unplanned moments. Or worse, when plans are disrupted.

But I’ve come to realise that it’s also moments like these which inspire creativity and encourage one to try out something new. Maybe because spontaneity carries with it, a certain sense of impulsivity and carelessness. You usually won’t think too much in moments of spontaneity.

Last Sunday, we had a whole series of activities line up but both of us woke up feeling unwell so all the plans got thrown off the track.

Came back from the clinic and had the urge to bake so that the Sunday could be a little more fulfilling.

So I turned to one of the quick-bake recipes which I’ve been wanting to try – Eric Lanlard’s Peanut Butter Blondies

And it was perfect for an impromptu bake because the ingredients were really simple and even more so, the baking process. And it smells so fantastic fresh out of the oven! What’s more, I got to share them with the lovely peeps at the office on Monday 🙂

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“Spontaneity is a meticulously prepared art.” – Oscar Wilde